There Is A Cyclic Tragedy Inherent To Mori's Character Wherein He's Actually A Deeply Lonely Man, But

One day, he will come back, bathed in blood. He will tap me on the head and say to me with a smile,

“You’re the true Lord Arakawa.”

SNK S4, EP 11 : FAVORITE SCENE

“There are humans outside the walls and they call us the race of devils, right? But I couldn’t understand why the world despises us like that.

Mia. Ben. Tell me.”

today i want to present you Gabi ‘i don’t fucking care about Falco’ Braun:

yeah

she doesn’t give a shit about Falco just at all

bonus:

William and the Fibonacci sequence

While math isn't really the main focus of the story, being a mathematician is still an important element of William's personality and mindset. It's the lens through which he views the world, incorporates experience, and thus gives meaning to things around him.

That's also the reason why I find so peculiar one little remark that he tells Sherlock at their first meeting:

"While that was a slightly forced deduction, you did make quite a good observation. However, rather than the golden ratio, I am more interested in the Fibonacci sequence."

The question is: why in this particular case does William correct Sherlock and specifically point out that he's interested in the Fibonacci sequence, but not in the golden ratio itself? The golden ratio and the Fibonacci sequence are closely intertwined with one another. There isn't any real reason why he would be interested in one thing but not in the other if he were solely curious about the properties of the spiral.

So, maybe, it isn't about the math and the spiral at all?

To answer this question, I'd like to look at the chapter's context first.

In a sense, ch. 5 is quite special by itself, as it represents the point of no return in the story. It has two major points to focus on. One of them is the final introduction of William's grand plan, which he had not revealed in full up until now. Another one is the moment when William meets Sherlock for the first time, or the staircase scene in question.

Now, as William states, at the core of his plan lies "the play of death". He means to turn London into a grand stage, and so, every step he takes is a carefully written plot that has an underlying message and a running theme, connecting one act with the other. Everything is measured and well within his control, as if he were indeed a screenwriter writing a play.

Luring Lord Enders into committing a crime serves to prove William's intention as well. While carefully guiding him to a breaking point, William is even shown to think of each step of his plan as a "scene". And right up to the meeting at the staircase, he ensures to execute this project through and through, not leaving a single possibility unattended, and not a single moment unaccounted for.

In other words, a good chunk of the chapter is dedicated to showing William's approach to what he's doing, as well as to his vision of himself as a director of a play. which he is not, but that's a topic for another time

Coming back to the Fibonacci sequence, it is evident that here it resembles exactly William's grand plan. It's the sequence of actions, or rather deaths, that he intends to carry out. While taking a step back to observe the stairs, he also takes in the whole picture of the stage that he so carefully set, and the actors at play.

But what's even more interesting to me here is the golden ratio and William's lack of attention to it. The golden ratio is an irrational number. It is the limit, towards which all ratios of the sequence must converge, but one that cannot be reached. It's the ideal.

It's William's wish to create the ideal country, or even world, devoid of all humanity's corruption.

So, why won't he look at his ideal, for which he yearns so much?

Being a mathematician, one of William's problems throughout the story is that he's constantly seeking a single, clear-cut solution. He dedicated his whole life to coming up with an equation that could've led him to his desired outcome, his ideal world. And the equation he came up with was that of utilizing the fear of death in people's hearts.

But the reality of a human heart and mind is far more complex for any possible calculation. It's just as irrational and ever-present, as the golden ratio itself.

Seeing how William constantly adjusts his plans, I think that he, as a true mathematician (and a perfectionist to the bone), at one point became far more obsessed with finding the ideal solution for his equation, rather than the end goal itself. On the other hand, he also feels a desperate need to hold every possible thing within his control. And especially Sherlock Holmes, who very much dislikes playing his assigned role in William's play.

But another reason would be that William must really not be able to imagine how this beautiful world of his is supposed to look, as he never intended to see it for himself.

In William's eyes, he's just another one of many numbers in the sequence.

Another devil to die before wrapping up the ultimate solution that he was searching for all this time.

Meta on "Thank you" and "Sorry" in MDZS

Inspired out of spite by a post where someone said Lan Wangji not wanting to hear thank you and sorry from Wei Wuxian in the novel is stupid because healthy couples need communication and this is why CQL is better. LMAOO

OK. Before starting I want to point out that one of the themes of the novel and Wei Wuxian's characterisation is the concept of indebtedness and owings . It is one of the reasons why he is so dutiful towards the Jiangs and why he sacrifices his golden core and the reason he resurrects Wen Ning.

The words Thank you and Sorry are very significant in the story and are very explicitly tied to the above mentioned themes. They are the words Wen Qing says to Wei Wuxian in her parting because she feels indebted towards Wei Wuxian as he has protected her and the rest of Wen remnants and even resurrected Wen Ning on her request. Wen Qing and Wei Wuxian have a cycle of debts where they both believe they owe each other. [Just to clarify I don't think it's just indebtedness that defines their relationship but it's definitely there ].In the next life Wei Wuxian uses the exact pair of words on Jin Ling as he owes him for insulting his parents whose deaths are caused by him.

As you can see these words are explicitly associated with indebtedness and owing.

Lan Wangji loves Wei Wuxian unconditionally. He obviously wants Wei Wuxian to return his feelings BUT he does not want Wei Wuxian to do so out of indebtedness or gratitude. Whenever Wei Wuxian says thank you to him, the narration describes as him being tense and sad, the cause of this is as I described earlier and also because in the past whenever they have exchanged these words they have parted on bad terms.

The text is very explicit about this.

"Lan Zhan you're really scared of me telling you 'thank you', aren't you? I suddenly remembered many of the times we parted ways in my past life, I said 'thank you' to you right before. And every time we separated, I worsened the next time we met"

The time they killed Wen Chao and Wen ZhuLiu at the courier station, the time they met each other through the flowers at the towers in Yunmeng, the time they parted at Yiling's Burial Mound. Every time, he used that word to mark a clear line between him and Lan Wangji, stretching out the distance between them.

The word that finally breaks their makeout session in the inn is one thank you from Wei Wuxian where Lan Wangji snaps as he believes Wei Wuxian is only doing this out of gratitude towards him and not because he returns his feelings. It is insulting and heartbreaking to him and he is angry because of this.

When the conflict is resolved with Wei Wuxian's confession that includes :

"... I swear it's not the heat of the moment or joking around like I have done in the past. I'm not doing it out of gratitude either. Anyways, it's not because of anything else. I really just like you so much."

He deliberately clarifies that there are no feelings of gratitude or indebtedness involved in reciprocating Lan Wangji's feelings.

"Between you and me, there is no need for 'thank you' and 'sorry'."

This line by Lan Wangji defines how he views their relationship i.e without indebtedness or owings. So far all the relationships that Wei Wuxian had been a part of have the feeling of obligation and indebtedness, the Jiangs for raising him and Wen siblings for rescuing him and helping him out . Ofcourse he loves them but indebtedness and his sense of duty to repay them are also his major motivations. He takes drastic steps because of this and we all know how they turned out. Lan Wangji doesn't want this kind of relationship with him, the one he had with others in the past. He wants him to be free of ever feeling like that he owes Lan Wangji something.

Thank you and sorry are not just courtesy words here but carry a hurtful baggage and choosing not to use them isn't a miscommunication but freeing from the feeling of obligations.

Wen Ning: *sends a voice message to WWX*

Wei Wuxian: (texting) I’m a little busy, is it urgent?

Wen Ning: (texting) No, don’t worry, just listen later.

[later]

Wei Wuxian: *presses play*

Wen Ning’s voice message: THERE’S A FIRE—

mtp characters as birds (2)

a follow-up to this post (part 1).

and in this part it's gonna be the rest of the moriarty's party + even more fun facts about birbs~

MORAN: a steppe eagle. these birds are large and formidable birds of prey that both hunt live game and don't shy away from scavenging for carrion. and that's exactly the line of thought that i used for an association here. moran, as william's right-hand man, matches this description well: he both hunts down those who are not needed alive anymore, and clears william's path of any filth that could lead to the lord of crime and get in their way. tbh initially he was meant to be an eastern imperial eagle, but i settled for a steppe eagle purely because in my mind, it matches moran's appearance more (as its plumage is quite darker than that of an eastern imperial eagle).

FRED: a shrike! these little cuties look harmless and defenseless, but in reality they're as much fierce hunters as any preying bird. shrikes can eat about anything from insects to vertebrates, including other birds as well, and are known to hunt prey even larger than themselves. but their uniqueness comes from their hunting technique. as shrikes are not true birds of prey (they're passerines), lacking assets that those guys have (like sharp talons), they stalk their prey and ambush it in one swift strike, using their beaks to break victim's neck. and when it comes to killing prey bigger than themselves, they often impale it by carrying and throwing it at sharp barbs or thorns. all in all, they're such cool birdies lol.

anyway, all that yap is just to say that fred's fighting skills and his general role as a spy that hide behind his quiet and kind character (or is it the other way around?) remind me a lot of shrike's behavior and its deceptive nature.

BONDE: right after william, he was the second one with whom i struggled the most, but eventually i've settled on a european bee-eater for him. it's a very beautiful and colorful little bird that imo perfectly reflects james' charm and charisma. but another noticeable thing about bee-eaters (as it's evident from their name lol) is their diet, which consists mostly of, well, bees. sadly, for that reason some beekeepers would often kill them thinking they ruin their hives (which is not the case at all). in a way, that somewhat reminds me of irene adler's fate as well, considering how they endangered themselves for so long while working for a good cause, but then got involved in something far bigger than themselves and just... couldn't handle it, because, despite how talented they are, they're but a human being after all (or a bird being in case of bee-eaters ig).

JACK: ok, it seems like this fancy old man is actually the only one who gets two picks from me lol. you see, i just can't imagine him in his youth and him in his old age to be the same bird. idk, he's like a totally different person, and that's it.

alright, so, the first one, corresponding to his youth, would be a golden eagle. this apex predator perfectly describes jack at his prime, with him being feared by both his foes and allies alike.

the second pick, matching his old butler persona, would be a white stork. tbh it should've been a black stork, as i think its shy and reclusive nature better reflects jack's retirement and living for years as a simple butler, severing any possible connection to his past. and, uhh, bc how could i not include a black stork in a bird list of mine.... my friends would be shocked if they heard about it lool. but then i kinda looked again at this old man and thought that he's. um. if he's old, let him... be old. and look just as glorious for his age even as a bird. :p

MONEYPENNY: a short-eared owl! just... dang. look at how gorgeous these birds are and tell me that moneypenny isn't just as gorgeous as them. honestly, it's one of the few characters/birds where i went mostly by vibe and somewhat by appearance, but gosh that owl looks just like her incarnate, and i can't see it any other way.

VON HERDER: a proud example of a true magpie! he's sooo magpie-coded lol. again, as yet another corvid, magpies are intelligent birds that are also quite playful and energetic. even though them liking shiny/metal things is actually a myth, they're still fond of collecting some little trinkets for building their nests. and i can't help but think of von herder who always does as he pleases and invents all kinds of stuff from nothing. i bet if you give him one day, a can of trash, and leave him in a basement, he'll make you an endless engine because he got too bored. and him loving those strange metal puzzles? so cute. so magpie.

I definitely read Mo Xuanyu’s “bad” make-up as being intentional. He wasn’t out here trying to look like a pretty, delicate flower. He wanted his appearance to be confronting. He wanted to externalise his feelings. WWX looks at that face and thinks he looks like a corpse and that’s exactly what MXY was going for.

We don’t get a direct look at MXY’s state of mind at all, and other characters think he’s just ~bad at make-up~ because he’s ~crazy~ but actually he independantly invented being a goth. I love that boy.

"Eren, you are free."