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my day be so fine

Your image is seared into my vision, lingers behind my eyelids and is tattooed on my brain.

No matter how hard I scrub, the residue of us still lingers, and I can see the absence of you in my life, like the lighter skin under a just pulled Bandaid.

My hands that fit perfectly into yours now sweat at the thought of getting anywhere near yours again, and at night they reach for your spot of the bed as if a drop of sweat/tears will water the soil of the just removed grass, and it will regrow.

I see your eyes and nose and mouth staring back at me through my bathroom mirror at night, as I brush my teeth I feel the cold, empty hands hold onto my shoulder from your spot.

The places you used to lay in are now lighter, untouched by the sun in the months you spent there; I gently touch my fingertips to where your hand used to sleep and close my eyes in prayer for the lingering warmth to come back, just for a second, to replace the dullness that comes with our long time apart.

I was organizing some of my resources, and thought I’d make a post to share the ones I’ve found particularly useful. I’m going to be keeping these links in a google doc and updating it as I run across new things in the future, so feel free to check that out here. And feel free to add to this post if you know of more resources! 

Free Portfolio Sites

crevado.com

Free Stock

Great for reference. A lot of these sites have nice textures too.

picography

freestocks.org

gratisography.com

foodiesfeed.com

pexels.com

unsplash.com

stocksnap.io

mmtstock.com

pixabay.com

reshot.com

burst.shopify.com

picjumbo.com

lifeofpix.com

skitterphoto.com

jaymantri.com

epicantus.tumblr.com

isorepublic.com

ArtPose Pro

art-pose.com

Not free, but it’s only $10 and allows you to make your own poses with 3d models. Pretty easy to use, and it’s designed for making art reference so it doesn’t have a million features you’ll never use. The interface is simple, it has premade poses to get you started, and you can whip up an original pose pretty fast. Best $10 I’ve ever spent.

Fonts

Font Squirrel

A database of royalty free fonts. Make sure to check the licenses as some are ambiguous, but most are free for commercial use. 

Font Bundles

Not all of their stuff is free but a lot of it is cheap. They also have vector graphics. 

Their free fonts are here: https://fontbundles.net/free-fonts

Discounted items are here: https://fontbundles.net/deals

Blambot

They have some fonts that are free for indie artists

Photoshop Brushes

brusheezy.com

DeviantArt (there are actually some really good ones on there. They’re harder to find with the new layout though, so this links to a search where you can browse them)

brushlovers.com (vectors, textures, and patterns too)

Free Music

purple-planet.com

anyone who puts this on their blog is really really really gay

I like to think this is an excuse to draw scar’s nipples lmao

quiet night at the desert

“Why did you?” Asked Patton once again, tears blossoming in his eyes. He often wondered why Logan did it, even though two years have passed the question still lingered in his mind, why would he do such a horrible thing? “I had no choice, you are a lucky person, you are amazing in every way, but I couldn’t stay, I wish I could but I couldn’t. It was for your sake, your safety”. Patton couldn’t believe it, after he left him behind, hurt him, al the respect, love and care he gave him, this was his excuse? Saying he was furious was an understatement. “Why would you leave me there, so suddenly, like I were nothing? Like we were nothing?!? And all you have to say is you had no choice?!?” “BECAUSE THEN I WOULD HAVE TO FACE MY FEARS!” Logan finally screamed. Patton was shocked at the other side, the tears still streaming down his face, making his cheeks and nose a beautiful rosey red, muted by the salty water coming from his eyes. “Fears?” Was the only word that could come out of his throat, draining all the pain and anger and replacing it with confusion. “I feared of a lot of things while we were together, the most prominent ones are hurting you or letting you down, so I did the only logical thing I knew, and I terribly regret that. Patton, I am sorry, you were the only good thing that came out of it. I thought you were always proud of that” Logan sighed, he really did love Patton very much, but his fear of facing his fears are worse, hell, he was terrified by the idea of disappointing his lovely Patton, so he ‘dumped’ him, regretting every second of it. “Even on the darkest days you still make Steven Universe references” Patton commented. Logan realized what he said and covered his mouth immediately. “I sincerely apologize for my actions, if I could take it all back I would, only if you want, can we?” Logan asked, knowing that Patton knew what the rest of the question was. “Of course” Patton whispered, “I would love to” he jumped over to Logan, wrapping his arms around the other sides neck, kissing him gently but lovingly. Logan was shocked at first but quickly kissed back, enjoying the tast of Patton lips, he wondered how he survived without him two years, but there were two prominent thought in his mind: 1. Patton tasted like strawberry cheesecake and chocolate chip cookies. 2. He has finally gotten over his fears.

The end!

“According to you, I’m a lucky person,” Patton hums, looking up at the sky, “Then why do I cry myself to sleep every night? Why did you break my heart the way you did?”

Logan stayed quiet, looking away from him.

I am in the middle of French class when my teacher mentions the word mignon which is a pole, and randomly I thought “this is my new insult”

The feminine urge to want to go to sleep at 3-5pm

So yesterday i was thinking (at 3am of course, that’s when my ideas are at their peak) about sanders sides and stuff and it somehow went into me thinking of an idea for 2 new sides so

GET PREPARED

A feminine side and a masculine side.

this idea popped into my head like a popcorn, and I though ‘I just had to post this’ so here I am!

Let me elaborate, the feminine side is the side thats more feminine of course and wears like a flowery, warm colored dress with this belt around the waist, maybe knee high stockings and high heels. But you might be thinking ‘how can Thomas pull that off even though he is so amazingly built, his body doesn’t pull off a dress’ but here is where you’re wrong. It won’t be Thomas playing this character, it’ll be another friend of his so that got me thinking about fanfic and how this character played into it, so I thought maybe the feminine and masculine (I’ll get into detail on him later) were meant to be together from the start and stuff but either the feminine side or the masculine side didn’t want that or one of them wanted to be non-binary but because it was a feminine/masculine side it couldn’t happen. Also the feminine and masculine color scheme are pink and orange bc I think it’d be cool.

So I wanted to elaborate on the masculine side. It could be Thomas in an orange tank top and basketball shorts with tennis shoes, and of course, this character is played by Thomas and it’ll be like the “bro” side. Maybe in fanfics it can be a soft little mushball on the inside but he isn’t ready to show that to everyone so he puts on a defensive and concrete shell but all he wants ever is to cuddle the feminine side and just curl into a ball and cry esthetic. I think this character is like Craig and a little Robert mixed together from dream daddy (if you don’t know what it is it’s a game where you can date other dads by game grumps and I’ve been rewatching markiplier’s runthrough because why not)

Please tell me if anyone thought of this before me (probably) but I just thought it would be a good idea and if you agree, you agree, but if you don’t you can tell me what you didn’t like in constructive criticism and maybe fix it up a little bit

Me too

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Oka, I plan on following everyone on tumblr

literally everyone

Please reblog so I can make this happen