I Am Cat

in all the years I've had kanade as my special interest I have seen a plethora of bad takes about her but besides the more obvious ones another really bad one I've seen recently is that kanade has one of the most stable mental health because "she does what she feels like and doesn't hide her true feelings" which has got to be the single most surface level reading of her character I have ever seen. it goes back to this pattern I see in which prsk fans can't pick up on when a character is sad unless they show it as clearly as possible because what even is subtly. kanade hides her negative emotions just as much as mafuyu and mizuki do but the difference between her and them is that she hasn't slipped up yet. we've seen this as early on since kana1 where she does it twice; when she quickly leaves the hospital after finding out her dad doenst remember her and later on when she recalls her childhood picnic and cries because of how bittersweet it is and it's very clear that she was trying not to cry in both scenes just from the tone of her voice. this is seen again in kana4 where rushes to leave the sekai after telling rin the story about when she made her first song but then remembers what happened to her father, rin points out that she looks upset but kanade doesn't wanna admit it because she believes her problems aren't that serious (which apparently is a sentiment that the fandom agrees with). these aren't even subtle anyone who bothers to pay attention to any of these can pick up on kanades habit of repressing her negative emotion. and while yes she does love music, her dedication to composing isn't as simple as "I make music because it's fun and I like it :)" it's also somewhat of a job to her, a thing she does to give herself a purpose which she believe she needs to deserve a place on this earth. kanade’s saviour complex has been misunderstood in many different ways and one if them is this aspect with how much it's negatively affected her life both physically and mentally but it's been watered down to the simplest degree possible. it's why I hate the notion of "kanade can't heal until mafuyu does" when if anything that would just send her into an emotional spiral and an existential crisis because while kanade's desire to save people applies to everyone (its why n25 was created) it would still leave her feeling useless and therefore worthless as a person we've seen this in kana2, the event where kanade is at her lowest (and also hasn't met mafuyu yet), is still overworking herself to death despite how many times she's gotten comments from people saying her songs have saved them because in her eyes she will never be enough. to this day she still has this mentality, ena and mizuki have told her multiple times that she's gotten them out of rough periods in their lives and kanade’s saviour complex still lingers because it was never about just mafuyu. once mafuyu is out of the picture she'll just find someone else to latch onto for the desire of approval and it'll just be an endless cycle of misery until she breaks out of this mentality. saving mafuyu isn't the thing that's gonna heal her, she needs to let go of her guilt, realize that it was never her fault, and by proxy detaching herself from the desire to be useful. to live because she wants to, not because she needs to. so no, she's not "doing whatever she feels like" she's fulfilling an impossible goal she set for herself in an attempts to make herself happy but hasn't realized that it's the very thing that's been making her miserable

HEAT ABNORMAL COMES TO EN SERVER IN 3 DAYS

inspired by a friend misspeaking

FOR ANYONE WHO WANTS TO KNOW, TWO SPORTS TOPS ON TOP OF THE OTHER. IT MAY LOOK SIMPLE BUT IT FLATTENS YOUR CHEST JUST THE RIGHT AMOUNT

PLEASE USE IT CAREFULLY!!!! I'm gonna take it off now since I've been wearing one of the tops the entire morning and will need to wear it later + exercise so I need to be able to actually breathe. PLEASE take breaks and use it carefully and with your own limits in mind <3

JUST FOUND A WAY TO BIND

IMSOHAPPYIMSOHAPPYIMSOHAPPY

IT MAKES ME LOOK FLAT AFFFFF EXACTLY LIKE A BOY I'M LOOKING AT MYSELF ON THE MIRROR RN AND IT LOOKS SO RIGHT I LOVE IT I LOVE IT

The sheer amount of happiness kicked Mist out OEHDNDUDJJDJD

I did it hurrayyyyy

I should probably do an intro for this blog eventually

Lil list of all of us w pretty colors and stuff ‼️‼️

Made by yours truly, Lolbit

Our collective system name is The Stargazers or The Guardians Of The Starlit Lands (name was Moon's idea!) and we're 4: Lolbit, Blazeheart (or Blaze), Mist and Moonlight (or Moon).

I am the one that goes by Starblaze btw!! Initially it was me and Blaze but stuff happened :)))

Lolbit/Mint: Me :3! I guess I'm considered the host bc I'm the one fronting like 80% of the time, so you're almost always talking to me.

I mostly use no color in my text, but if I need to it'll be green. He/him for me only pls

Blaze: Sir Blazeheart II, Your Highness, is a fallen star and a king!!! You may recognize him for being more eccentric and... loud? Caps lock + exclamations user, as loud as you can be through text.

His text is orange and he goes by he/him.

Mist: The Mist is, well, a bit more complicated. They see themselves as some sort of entity, and are very curious. In general, they usually feel less or their emotions are more tame.

They use pink text and prefer plural they/them or it/its, but are fine with he/him.

Moonlight: Moon is... eccentric, in his own way. He's strongly wolfhearted and loves goth things and aesthetic. Though he may seem cold, he's just as caring as any of us. He's also constantly stressed out by me and Blaze :3 (not my fault you're both annoying.)

He uses purple text and for prns he/him, they/them or wolf/wolfself.

That's all!! :3

LIVE LAUGH LOVE NIIGO AND THEIR EAR CANDIES

I think watching videos specifically on audhd awakened something in me don't mind the posts lol (I was already suspecting I had adhd alongside my diagnosed autism but GODDAMN I did NOT need to be called out like that (I needed it))

me when I'm not sneaky at all and use cartoonishly obvious codenames or do very obvious references and expect people to not recognize me but also expect them to connect the dots and figure out eventually and can't decide if I should stay sneaky or just admit I'm that cat

so like. I just remembered I have free will

this a picture of my actual room wall btw. it is directly facing the door so that this is the first thing anyone sees upon entering

I regret nothing