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where’s all the Jerry Stokes x reader… I NEEED MORE OF THIS NERDY MAN😭😭😣😣😣
I forgot to post these😭😭😭
My mom: why are you wearing that wolf mask? You chould be getting ready for your first day back at school, aren't you existed? :)
Me wearing the wolf mask to hide my ugly crying: yep!
That awkward moment between being born and dying
That near-meltdown point when you feel like you can kinda control it and you ask yourself "am i here to make a scene or am i here to silently die inside"
Great way to start a chapter NOT
05.03.2025
DRAGGED myself to school even tho I was the literal embodiment of a walking corpse. Ended up crashing after school and woke up 5 mins before coaching.
Have chem hw to do which I'll get to soon (hopefully). Did math hw in class itself yaaay . I'll revise the stuff taken at school in the morning bus ride to school as usual :')
Toodles ~~
If flowers ever grow on my grave. Could I trust you to water them? Would you keep them alive like you failed to keep me breathing. No I am not sad I wanna live in a body that can at least make you smile.
Water my grave when flowers grow
_rainicide
was in class a few months ago and the topic of queerness and gender came up, like people usually do they started making jokes about labels.
"haha guys whats a FTM?? im a FTM HAHDHAHWHWJ"
me, ftm, already desperately attempting to not be singled out and now having to hold back from infodumping about every lgbtqia label because i hyperfixated on it when i was 10
Hiatus
As ssome of you guys might have noticed, I am not posting as frequently as I was (not that I'm posting that much anyways) but like exams are coming up and stress and self doubt are eating at me so like I'm a be gone to study my little poor Chinese heart out so my parents won't beat me to death /j
Until 4 October hehehehehe. I shall emerge again from the ashes. MY OWN ASHES
@vile-villainess I'm putting @bruisedandbeloved in a rehab program, I found her having a staring contest with a cat last night. . .
Nah, that ain't Jinx, it's Junk.
This is why I wish I could self destruct.
@onlyvika @piltovers-sweetest-cupcake @bruisedandbeloved @jinxbutsmol @vile-villainess @rio-specimen @ranofzaun @einthezaunite @minisevika @black-pearl-the-femme-fatale
@piltovers-sweetest-cupcake @bruisedandbeloved
Get a fucking room for that shit, stop doing it in public, you'll turn the frogs gay.
day 96 cleansing the #caitvi tl
time for cait to push vi a lil hehe
Literally fuck Atlantis: Milo's return (aka atlantis 2)
Atlantis was fine as a standalone film, Disney😐
no one
it doesn't matter how hard I'm trying to pretend that everything is okay.
it doesn't matter how sad I am and I've been all these years
it doesn't matter if I cry or if I destroy my body
it doesn't matter
because no one seems to notice
are they blind? are they ignoring me?
i know I'm not important but anyways I was at last expecting a kind of hero.
do I have to scream? because I'm already aphonic
and tired
of crying
of feeling more than lonely
of my mind
especially for this dark shitty awful pleace that we call mind.
of me
so I'm sorry if I give up
it's not your fault.
it's mine
all mine.
because I don't see the world the same you as you see it
i only see black and white
more black than white
more darkness
in this emptiness
in me.
I just want to stop overthinking every second of my life about this
about how useless I am
about all my defects
about things I can't do
about things I've done
about things I should have done
about things I should do but I know I'm not going to.
so that it, basically
my existence is nothing
just because I'm nothing.
Noooo that's so sad, why would you say that? And even if it did in the next world or in spirit it's still growing.
