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Having wincest in my "For you" makes me want to die 😄👍

Happy valentines day to all the people who got broken up with this week cause it's truly heart breaking

Happy valentines day to yhe couples to I hope yall are happy

Nessuno mi ha mai chiesto come stessi..

Non credo che ,comunque, avrei risposto di sì.Non mi ricordo di essere mai stato veramente felice.Non saprei nemmeno dire come ci si dovrebbe sentire.

Vorrei che qualcuno me lo chiedesse..Ma non una persona qualunque,alla quale magari non interessa nemmeno,ma qualcuno che vuole saperlo veramente.Qualcuno con cui non dovrò fingere che tutto vada bene.Vorrei avere accanto qualcuno che mi capisse..

Non credo esisterà mai qualcuno del genere nella mia vita.

Faccio troppo schifo per meritare di essere felice.Sarò per sempre "triste"(che non è la parola adeguata a descrivere come mi sento).In effetti,non sono triste..Non sono niente,non provo più niente.Forse perchè sono stanco di soffrire o provare quei sentimenti farebbe troppo male.

Provo solo un grande vuoto,che diventa sempre più grande..E fa tanto male,molto..

Nessuno si accorge di come sto,nessuno lo sa davvero e non capirebbero.

Persone come loro con capiscono niente.Non capisco che le parole hanno un significato e un peso,che non devono usarle a caso e che quello che dicono porta a delle conseguenze.

Le conseguenze?

Gli insulti fanno male,molto male.Specialmente a quelle persone che ci credono.Che pensano che quella sia la verità..

Anche per me è così.Lo so già che faccio schifo e sono inutile,non c'è bisogno di ricordarmelo costantemente.Anche se lo so,non vuol dire che non faccia male sentirselo dire.

Tranquilli,un giorno vedrete a cosa hanno portato tutti i vostri insulti.

Un giorno,mi stancherò di dover soffrire per colpa vostra e farò in modo che non mi possiate dire più niente.Almeno,io non sentirò più niente..voi continuate a dire quello che volete..

Probabilmente,un giorno non verrò più a scuola e non andrò più da nessuna parte.Non mi vedrete mai più..

Quando questo succederà,sappiate che siete stati voi ad uccidermi con le vostre parole..

- ( 💔 )

❝ 𝙄𝙡 𝙙𝙤𝙡𝙤𝙧𝙚 𝙘𝙖𝙢𝙗𝙞𝙖 𝙡𝙚 𝙥𝙚𝙧𝙨𝙤𝙣𝙚 ❞

𝘘𝘶𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘰 𝘦̀ 𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘰,𝘮𝘢 𝘢 𝘮𝘦 𝘩𝘢 𝘧𝘢𝘵𝘵𝘰 𝘢𝘯𝘤𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘥𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘭𝘢 𝘷𝘰𝘨𝘭𝘪𝘢 𝘥𝘪 𝘷𝘪𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘦 ..

- sʜʏɴ 🔭

Okay TW: ED( BITCH SO DONT READ IF YOU DONT WANT TO)

Now we have to start trying really hard to get this disgusting fat away so....

GET MYSELF TOGETHER DIET✨

Rules:

★Have to stay under 500 cals

★Anything over must work off twice that amount.

★Fruits and vegetables do count

★If you don't go over your goal you don't have to work it off

★Just try to walk every where and stay active

★Drink at least 1L water

★If you are hungry just drink tea/coco/coffee/water/zero drinks

And thats all for now...

This is just for me if you want to do this with me feel free to talk to me.

Im doing this bc i binged for 3 days straight.

Am starting at (again) 75 kg(i know i know im disgusting)

Ultimate Goal is 48kg but first goal is 50kg

But if you dont thats allrigth.

And as always stay safe and remember to keep yourself happy.

Tw :ed (just for fun)

Am i scared that everyone hates me or do i just hate myself.....

Story of my life tbh:

Pov: u woke up

hippity hoppity...

Your weight is now my property.. 🧙‍♀️🥴

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And now you are weightless💅

School hates me

Here's why it's only been three days and I've had to take a picture of myself twice so the teachers could see me. AND I'm currently delaying recording a video of myself for another teacher to get to know me. I hate taking pictures and recording of myself so freaking much. It's starting to make me wish that I just decided to go to the actual school instead of doing online. I genuinely want to die right now!!

I hate wireless earbuds.

Unfortunately, I have just come to the discovery that my new phone doesn't have one of those audio jack thingys, and so now I either can't listen to music and charge my phone, or I have to use awful, tiny little earbuds that get lost and die all the time and randomly disconnect and reconnect from phones at the upmost infuriating times possible.

I had to do math in one of my theatre classes today and got so stressed that I started crying in front of everyone

UMMM

just relapsed for no reason...its weird like.. i just wanted to...ALSO! my mom took my pills because shes scared i will try to ki11 myself lol

IM FUCKING CRYING

my mom discovered i Sh....im so fucked..She was yelling like crazy...i KNEW she will be angry and just say how im dumb and shes disappointed in me...i want to dissapear

IDK ANYMORE

i have a therapy tomorow...SO EARLY IN THE MORNING THO AAAAAAAA...im kinda happy to see my therapist! but still...i CANT tell her everything...my parents would literally kill me if they discover my Sh Addiction...

healthy lifestyle!

I haven't eaten anything today..and now I'm drinking my third coffee...i feel shitty aaaa

im so fuckin useless

Its not even funny anymore,i have no future, everybody fuckin hates me...why am i even here? im so fuckin ugly and disgusting i only make problems...all i do is rot in my bed and think about ki11ing myself...

I am losing myself

i feel like im not myself anymore..who tf am i? im so damn detached from reality...

....

i dont feel real at all

oh

my online friend just ki11ed himself?...He texted me...i Hope hes okay oh my god...Is it because of me? did i do something Wrong? i fucking can't

🤡🤡

i need to start taking my medications again eh i stopped,thinking i dont need it but i feel like shit,but when i take them i feel so damn empy and emotionless..

why the fuck do i still miss that person?

He made me hate myself..I cried every night because of him, I started hurting myself because of him, I wanted to di3 so much but I didn't even have the energy to get out of bed...he manipulated the shit out of me,totally ruined me

why do i still miss him...

i have no future

no like actually i dont,My family always says that...Even my psychiatrist said Im just causing problems for my family🤷🏻‍♂️its like everyone wants me to ki11 myself