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don't eat or you'll become a potato

(I'm trying to be toxic but potatoes are cute)

can someone bully me into not eating

please I wanna lose weight so bad

not before im perfect.

any tips on how to make tights smaller/get a tight gap??

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Hey guys,

I'm leaving Tumblr, at least for a couple of months, in an attempt to r3 c0 ver. I'll probably come back 20Ibs heavier crying about how I regret it, however my mental health is declining very rapidly, and 4n4 isn't making it any better so until I can get myself back in to a safe headspace, I will be leaving.

I love you all so much, and thank you all for giving me such a wonderful community to be apart of. Ilyasm! Y'all are some of the most amazing, sweetest angels I've ever met. You all were here for me when no one else was, and were the only people I could talk to about my w31ght struggles. Thx for everything, and for helping me lose 40Ibs. I hope every single one of you hit your UGW, r3c0v3r, or find whatever will bring you true inner happiness. Thx again sm. 💓💕

LOOKING FOR A F4STING PARTNER (PREFERABLY 72+ HOURS) Pls repost.

Also, every like this gets for the first week, I'll extend my f4st by an hour. Starting with a 24-hour f4st. Please share this around, I want this to be challenging. Thx!! <3 (if I break my f4st, I'm deleting my account for accountability (ToT)👍)

Also I'm seeing my husband this Sunday, so I have to stop acting like a p1g or im going to be f4tter than the last time he saw me

I mightve eaten 7k c4ls in the past two days....so I'm gonna attempt a f4st. I'm literally watching all my progress slip away from me rn. 🤪👍

I mightve eaten 7k c4ls in the past two days....so I'm gonna attempt a f4st. I'm literally watching all my progress slip away from me rn. 🤪👍

AHHHHH

I'm donating plasma rn and the woman who took my vitals kept talking about how tiny my hands are and then they had to use the CHILDREN'S blood pressure cuff. I'm so happy rn.

Any other anas donated plasma??

I need tips cause I always binge before donating with the excuse of "it's just so I don't faint" but that's all it is, an excuse. I get so weak and nauseous any time I go around needles and I have a donation tomorrow. Everything I've said online is drink lots of water, and no caffeine/nicotine beforehand. Does anyone have experience/tips for restr1ct1ng before/during donation?

New fav high protein safe combo!! (136 cals, 18.8g protein)

136 cals, 18.8g protein

Greek yogurt (nonfat, no sugar added) - 170g

Primer Protein Strawberry Almond protein cereal - 6g

Honey - 7g

Tastes literally so good. It's the perfect amount of sweetness and the honey balances out the Greek yogurt. Mostly carbs and protein. I love eating this pre workout cause it's so filling and gives me lots of energy. ✨

By the time these arrive, hopefully they'll fit. 😄💖

Rate my current safe food stash!!

Helhest

The irony's a bitter pill, a twisted delight,

The less I have, the stronger I feel in the night. Empty echoes in a hollow frame,

A twisted victory in this hunger game.

Each rib, a bony crown, a badge of my fight,

Against a foe unseen, in the dead of the night.

The mirror, a canvas of decline and decay,

But in the fractures, a twisted kind of ballet.

Food, the enemy, a siren's sweet call,

But control, a triumph, that conquers them all.

The world fades to whispers, a distant refrain,

As the hunger consumes, a sweet, hollow pain.

The warmth of a fire, a distant dream's hold,

But the chills that wrack me feel strangely consoled.

For weakness is freedom, a fragile release,

From a world that demands, a body to appease.

The whispers grow louder, a chorus of fear,

But the silence within is strangely more clear.

A voice in the darkness, a chilling decree,

"Sicker is better, for that's how you'll be free."

But freedom's a cage, with bars made of bone,

A victory dance, a victory alone.

The depths I descend, a descent without end,

This twisted desire, a hunger that won't mend.

Oh, the tears that won't fall, the emotions all numb, Is this what it's worth, to finally become...

Not smaller, not thinner, but something far worse,

A hollow shell dancing, in a malnourished corpse.

- just a poem my sleep deprived mind came up with. I hope you all enjoy it cause I'm new to writing.🥴

I wish I had just opened Tumblr instead of b1ng1ng

Starting this diet Monday. Anyone wanna join in? I'm going to post results for all the diets I try. ^-^

Most triggering 4N4 songs?

Trying to find more songs to add to my Spotify playlist

Just weighed myself for the first time since Sunday and apparently I weigh 0.1kg less than I did before I binged. Honestly I think my scale might be broken, or skinny fat has just got me in a crazy chokehold because I look way too fat to be BMI 16.3

Broke my fast with an egg and slice of toast, the guilt is low-key killing me but I’m walking it off tonight at work + I’m gonna take 25 lax.

It just hit me that I don’t want recovery, I just want to be happy.

And I know that recovery won’t change anything, eating won’t cure me of my depression so what’s the point. I don’t know how to feel now to be honest, I’ve romanticised getting sick enough to recover for so long because I thought it would bring that happiness but it won’t so now I don’t know what to do. I think that’s why I’ve been so suicidal lately, because I know deep down I’m just gonna be miserable forever no matter what I do so what’s the point in living at all.

Just woke up and weighed in at 47.7kg, .2kg under my goal weight. I know I should be excited but I’m not, I feel indifferent. In fact, I feel more fat than ever.

My next GW is 45kg.

Just took 25 laxatives even though the last time I took this much at once I ended up passed out on the floor with the worst stomach pain of my life, but I’m not taking any chances of maintaining for any longer.

Pray for me y’all 🙏🙏

BRO WHY DID I HAVE TO START MAINTAINING LITERALLY 0.2KG AWAY FROM MY GW WHAT THE FREAK I LITERALLY FASTED YESTERDAY AND STILL MAINTAINED

I used to love baking before I relapsed, I really miss it. Hopefully one day, if I finally get sick enough to deserve recovery, I can start doing it again.

Only .5kg away from my GW, and I actually think I’m gonna reach it this time considering besides the general temptations here and there I have no intention of binging.

My plan was to get my nails done to celebrate reaching my GW but I have to save my money, so if anyone has any other free/cheap reward ideas lmk !! 🫶

guys so sorry my ipad died and i had trouble logging in on the web but im back, but heres a lil update;

the easter week i was sick and didnt have ’proper’ meals until friday which was great, and i went to our cabin where we have a scale, and i’ve maintained/lost a little weigh! im super motivated rn, and im gonna try to workout everyday again, get back into that ykk

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ACTIVE APRIL 2024

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ABOUT ME

Im 22 student of criminology🤍

I had a problem with huge weight swings and was caught in a vicious cycle of starvation and overeating... I have a bad relationship with food and honestly in my head I don't even know what I really want.

I vent my thoughts and feelings here. Sometimes I feel like I'm dying and other times I laugh at the ed meme.

I am currently trying to get my weight back on lw ... I don't feel good about my body and this is the only way to improve it. Lately, every meal has made me feel sick and nauseous. I believe that I will get the discipline like before.

You are not alone, enjoy my posts and text me anytime if you need to.

I love you, stay safe.